I need to process, so this will go a few different directions I think. I really, really need to get the rest of summer pictures on here, what there was of it, anyway. It doesn't feel like we did a whole lot. I'm hoping there will be another month, at least, of nice weather.
I started back to work today. Didn't get much done. I really wanted to change up my seating into a more collaborative arrangement. I do a lot of small group work, so I wanted a better configuration for that. I spent an hour or more moving my tables about, trying to find a way to get them into groups without having anyone sitting with their backs to the front. To do that, they had to be sideways. Kids would have to sit a bit sideways when looking up front, but doable. They weren't nice and neat and symmetrical, and that was making me itchy, but I was prepared to give it a try. But I couldn't make it work with traffic patterns. With bodies in chairs I wouldn't be able to move about the room hardly at all. I wasn't even sure if I could get back to my desk once you figure in backpacks and tall kids who are leg stretchers and whatall. So then I just put it all back to how it was when I walked in this morning. Waste. Of. Time. And now my back hurts and I probably have bruises all over my legs from pushing on tables. Oh well.
Lots of work anxiety. Lots. Hope it all goes OK. I'm teaching AP Language this year, which is new to me. The teacher who I'm taking over for has a really high pass rate, and I feel pressure to be as good as she is right off the bat.
I'm so sick of the way my classroom looks. I need to overhaul it, but who has time for that? I need to pull down all the posters and put up new artwork and blah blah and I don't have time. Boooo.
A while back, before the presidential primaries, I said that I didn't think Donald Trump really wanted to be President. I figured that he would drop out before he got this far because he was just in it for the ego and the notoriety, the press, and to be able to say that he could have beat everyone. So when he became the nominee, I went "huh". Weird. He seems like a guy who wouldn't want to be hampered by Secret Service, limited in where he can go and what he can do and what he can say, although, granted, he doesn't seem to worry much about that last one. He can't make any money while president, and as far as I understand he isn't allowed to own any businesses. But then, as the level of crazy has started to ramp up even higher, including such claims as Obama created ISIS with Hillary Clinton and alleging that President Obama paid the Attorney General of New York $15,000 "or some big sum of money" to investigate Trump University, I realized that I was right all along. Trump is just trying to figure out what it will take for people to stop supporting him. How crazy can he be, what outlandish claims can he make that will get people to finally realize that he cannot get anywhere near the presidency. He claimed he could commit murder out in the open in broad daylight and his supporters would still support him. I believe that is the truth. I think he doesn't want to be President, and that's why he doesn't calm down and start acting presidential. I also think he knows he's going to lose, and that's why he's started claiming the election is rigged. To save face. The problem is, he's creating a dangerous situation in which some American's will believe those lies and believe that Hillary somehow stole the presidency from Trump, and his base tends to be angry and scared. He's already called upon the "Second Ammendment" folks to stop Hillary Clinton. Scary.
Been watching the Olympics. That's always fun. Hoping to go to the lake on Sunday. My brain feels less cluttered now, so I think I'm done processing.
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Monday, August 15, 2016
Life Goals
I love this. It's what I'm working toward. I think that she's right about self-reliance. It is really good for the self-esteem. Something to work on.
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